1). INTRODUCTION TO MY TESTIMONY
SOMETIMES WE NEED TO HURT IN ORDER TO GROW, WE MUST LOOSE IN ORDER TO GAIN.. SOMETIMES SOME LESSONS ARE LEARNED BEST ENOUGH THROUGH PAIN..(I WILL SHARE A POST ON PAIN IN RELATION TO THIS TESTIMONY IM GOING TO SHARE WITH U ALL.)
A VITAL LESSON I LEARNT WITH TIME IS THAT IF YOU DONT SEE YOURSELF THE RIGHT WAY THAT IS ENOUGH TO LIMIT YOU. WE SHOULD NEVER LIMIT OUR CAPABILITIIES WHEN WE SERVE A LIMITLESS GOD. BECAUSE IT SHOWS YOURE PLACING LIMITS ON WHAT GOD CAN DO IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!! DONT DO IT!!!!!
This testimony I am going to share has many aspects to it the good the bad the evil you name it. At first when God called me and I began doing His work, deep down I was trying to run away from sharing my testimony of what I went through that led to ministry. I felt low and ashamed that it had happened to me, but then with a talk from some of the lovely sisters in Christ I had opened up to a bit about my experience. They, along with two brothers in Christ made me realize that, I actually have nothing to be ashamed of, along with this God was also telling me to share it all and with obedience I knew I couldn’t ignore. Even though it was a personal part of my past life it’s still quite fresh and so opening up to all of you was and is a very big challenge.
Giving this testimony is to share what I endured and to help other women who may have been or are in similar, to help them as their escape route to get better, to not settle for less than they deserve. Praise be to God one of my sisters in Christ read one of my posts and got the courage to leave her boyfriend who wasn’t treating her how she ought to be treated. I thank God for this and this was one of the motivating factors to continue sharing the word. It has helped me and many and God is doing great things already.
I learnt soo much from my own experience and that it is very important to share. As I have been led to share this so help me God for the strength to see it through. There is no condemnation in the Lord and so once He has spoken I shall follow. I lived it, learnt from it and now will tell my story.
I was once deep in the dark pit, lost, but now I am in the light doing God’s work, what I thought would destroy me God turned it around for good. And today I am sharing it with all of you, which to be honest, even though I had told a few people about some, not even half of it, didn’t think I would share it on a bigger platform. But at times it’s important to remember and understand that situations and people will come into our lives not all for good but will teach us lessons and help in our walk to strengthen us and show us what it is we don’t need.
One of the main objectives in ministry is to win souls to Christ and help those already in Christ. To show people that no matter how painful the past is that you can and will overcome it all and get better. The past was a lesson and a stepping stone into our present times, which will help prepare and mould us for what is ahead in our futures God willing. It’s to say to you all this is where I once was- battered, low, depressed, lost, confused and afflicted and look at me today!!! Not only did I overcome all that came my way, able to help other women, no matter they’re background to realize who they are in Christ and what knowing God is really about. I am living proof that in spite of my pain head deep, God still stretched forth His hand and pulled me out, Gloryyyyyy be to God.
EPHESIANS 3:12,13 IN WHOM WE HAVE BOLDNESS AND ACCESS WITH CONFIDENCE THROUGH FAITH IN HIM. THEREFORE I ASK THAT YOU DO NOT LOSE HEART AT MY TRIBULATIONS FOR YOU, WHICH IS YOUR GLORY.
You see that is what I lacked before the confidence to share this testimony I was consumed with soo many mixed emotions embarrassment and pain but God being soo good reassured me, and through my lovely sisters the encouragement and prayers worked. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger and bolder right??
My dear sis sent this particular verse to me and what I love about it is that it says through our Saviour Jesus Christ we have the access to our Father with CONFIDENCE. Without fear and that we should not lose heart for the trials He puts us through which turn out for our glory. I now see why I went through all I did as painful as it was.
So therefore we should not be afraid for trials faced but rather share that testimony and be grateful He is even using us to help be a blessing to someone else. CORNELIUS LINDSEY, Heather Lindsey’s husband mentioned something along the lines to do with faithfulness is that the faithful are given the endowment to complete the most difficult tasks and that their words do match their deeds…
He went on to say ‘faithfulness is having complete trust and confidence in God and the word He has given you. When you are faithful and obedient to His call He can use you to complete even the hardest tasks you feel within you that you cannot do. So if it is God’s will that you share your testimony and tell it how it is, with your trust and faith in God the whole time, none of it will be done in vein. But rather God will give you the tools you need to deliver the message to travel far and beyond. Once it is an assignment from God He will definitely equip you.
ABOUT THE GUY- HE DID LET THINGS SLIDE BUT I THOUGHT WITH TIME SUCH WILL CHANGE AND HE WILL ACKNOWLEDGE IT ALL BUT I WAS WRONG THERE. TO PRAY WAS A MISSION FOR HIM, FASTING HE DIDNT BELIEVE IN IT AND AT TIMES HE DID MAKE ME FEEL AS THOUGH I HAD TO PICK BETWEEN HIM AND GOD.. THE MORALS WERE THERE BUT NOT IN THE RIGHT PLACE AND SOO UNSTABLE BUT YET I STAYED BY HIM. GOD KNOWS ALL THAT HAPPENED AND HOW HE WAS SOO DISTANT FROM GOD. AT TIMES HE FELT NO WAY IN TRYING HARDER TO CHANGE IT.. SAD REALLY THAT THOSE IN TODAYS SOCIETY ARE MORE CONTENT WITH WAYS AND WORDS THAT DO NOT GLORIFY GOD BUT RATHER PUT THEMSELVES AS THE MASTERS OF THEIR LIVES, GLORIFYING THEMSELVES AND SIN BUT NOT GOD.
SOME OF THE VITAL SCRIPTURES (AKA) MY PICK ME UP, IMPORTANT REMINDERS:
- 1 CORINTHIANS 1:30-31 BUT OF HIM YOU ARE IN CHRIST JESUS, WHO BECAME FOR US WISDOM FROM GOD AND RIGHTEOUSNESS AND SANCTIFICATION AND REDEMPTION; THAT AS IT IS WRITTEN, ‘HE WHO GLORIFIES, LET HIM GLORY IN THE LORD.’
- 2 CORINTHIANS 5:17- THEREFORE, IF ANYONE IS IN CHRIST, HE IS A NEW CREATION; OLD THINGS HAVE PASSED AWAY; BEHOLD, ALL THINGS HAVE BECOME NEW..’ (TO SAY THAT ALL I ENDURED WILL EVENTUALLY FULLY HEAL AND PASS AWAY AND I AM NOW A NEW CREATURE IN CHRIST FULFILLING THE CALLING OVER MY LIFE.)
- JOHN 1:12 – BUT AS MANY AS RECEIVED HIM, TO THEM HE GAVE THE RIGHT TO BECOME CHILDREN OF GOD, TO THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN HIS NAME.’
- EPHESIANS 2:10 – FOR WE ARE HIS WORKMANSHIP, CREATED IN CHRIST JESUS FOR GOOD WORKS, WHICH GOD PREPARED BEFOREHAND THAT WE SHOULD WALK IN THEM.
- 2 CORINTHIANS 12:9 – AND HE SAID TO ME ‘MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU, FOR MY STRENGTH IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS.
GOD IS JUST TOO MUCH AND FOR ALL HE HAS DONE FOR ME AND WHERE HE TOOK ME FROM I JUST GIVE HIM THANKS, WHAT I CANT PUT INTO WORDS MY HEART WILL COMMUNICATE IT TO HIM. AT TIMES IT’S SOO OVERWHLEMING WHEN I LOOK BACK TO HOW I WAS THEN AND HOW I AM NOW. AT TIMES I SHED TEARS AND GO INTO MEDITATION, THINKING ABOUT MY LAST EXPERIENCE AND THE PEOPLE GOD TOOK ME AWAY FROM..THE HEART OF MEN REALLY IS WICKED, YOU CANNOT TRUST ANYONE 100% AND THOSE U THINK YOU CAN TRUST AND LET CLOSE WILL BE THE SAME ONES WHO CAN TURN ON YOU IN ANY MINUTE. LIFE IS NOT EASY BUT GOD MAKES IT BEARABLE WHEN WE LEAN ON HIM AND MEDITATE ON THE WORD DAILY WITH CONSISTENT PRAYER COMMUNICATION WITH HIM.
I HAVE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF LET DOWNS FROM PEOPLE I BENT OVER BACKWARDS FOR, IVE BEEN MOCKED, HUMILIATED, USED AND BETRAYED. BUT YOU SEE AT THE TIME I SAID IT DID BREAK ME. BUT ONCE I GOT CLOSER TO GOD AND HEALED FROM ALL THAT HAD BEEN DONE TO ME. I REALIZED THAT THEY ALL HELPED ONE WAY OR ANOTHER IN STRENGTHENING MY CHARACTER TO MAKE ME HAVE A BACKBONE TO HANDLE ALL THAT WAS THROWN AT ME. IM NO LONGER BITTER, BUT HAVE FORGIVEN THEM AND MOVED ON, THOSE CHAPTERS IN MY LIFE ARE OVER SO IT SHOULDNT EFFECT MY BEING NOW BECAUSE IM NO LONGER THERE.
THE SPIRIT IS LIKE A CAR TANK FULL OF GAS IT KEEPS YOUR MIND, SOUL AND BODY RUNNING CONTINUOSLY TO RECEIVE ETERNAL LIFE, SALVATION.
TRUST IS A LUXURY I CANT AFFORD BUT BETRAYAL IS SOMETHING I CANT IGNORE. FORGIVENESS IS HEALTHY FOR THE SOUL, FORGIVE YOURSELF FOR MAKING BAD DECISIONS AND OTHERS TO MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE.
THE CHAINS THAT CAGED ME WITH THE PAST HAVE NOW BEEN BROKEN. AS A LION IS CAGED IN A CELL HE BECOMES ANGRY BUT AS THEY RELEASE HIM INTO THE WILD HE STARTS A NEW FREEDOM, A NEW JOURNEY OF LIFE.
IT IS SOO IMPORTANT TO BE SPIRITUALLY MATURE WHEN STUDYING THE BIBLE. DO NOT TREAT THE BIBLE AS A NORMAL BOOK, READ IT TO GAIN UNDERSTANDING TO FEED THE SPIRIT.
PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE GOD’S TIMING IS THE RIGHT TIME, BE PATIENT, WAIT AND RECEIVE THE BEST AND DONT SETTLE FOR LESS.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL